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01/03/2004 Archived Entry: "Day One...AA"

Boy, predictions come true! 2004 is off to a royal sucking.

As anyone who still reads this (and I can't think of who would anymore) probably already knows, Ally has decided that she no longer wants to talk to me. I can't even describe how much this sucks but, at the same time, if it's what she feels she has to do...guess there's nothing I can really do about it. The only thing I'm mad about is her continual insistance that I knew what was going on the whole time...and I didn't and still don't. That's really the only thing that pisses me off as most everything else is my fault, though she obviously doesn't care what I say anymore and she still wouldn't believe it even if she did read it...she's formed her opinion and nothing will ever change it. I'll miss her, because she's one of the greatest people I've known...just wasn't meant to be I suppose. Kind of ironic how she always said that she'd never hurt me like some people have and then goes and hurts me this badly...not that she isn't perhaps justisfied, but it's still ironic. Like I said, I'm not mad at her, since she's doing what's best for her in her judgement, but it does suck because I did care about her a lot (whether she believes it or not...which she never seemed to).

This also brings into question how long I'll keep the website going. Ally was heavily involved with this website and I don't know if I can keep it up without the memories hurting. Since I doubt she'll read it anymore and most of the others who come here were friends of hers, they'll probably stop coming too. Seems like a lot of work for a website nobody's going to read.

I was going to type up about all the stuff that went on with the house today, but realizing that probably nobody will read it, why bother? Can barely see the screen at this point anyway. Leave comments if you want.

Replies: 1 Unclean Mutant

Oh Ye of little faith......

Posted by Bearclaw @ 01/04/2004 09:53 AM EST

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