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01/01/2004 Archived Entry: "SSDY"

Yep...it's that time of year again...the beginning.

So, what's 2004 look like? A bunch of junk. I've ceased being optimistic about anything, as it always ends up blowing up in my face. When I have things right in front of me, I'll believe it.

The house is slowly coming along...in the process of getting new applicances now. While the things there work (with the exception of the stove...which really does work but won't clean), I do believe they all came with the house and so haven't been replaced in 14 years. Just seems like you're asking for trouble there. I already have a new washer/dryer (Whirlpool Gold Ultimate II) and today I do believe we're going for a new Maytag stove with ceramic range. While my mother is concerned that if I take the cat, he'll burn himself on the top...I do believe that is a mistake that he would only make once or twice. I was looking at a very nice Kenmore Elite refridgerator, but I don't know if I should really be spending that much. Of course, so far my mom has bought this stuff, so I don't know why I'm saying "I should be spending"...

On the actual house itself, Bank of America has approved my credit (which I hear is the big step in that process) but now I need to get all the forms filled out and get everything ready. The closing date is supposed to be the 13th of January, I don't know.

Eventually, I'm going to have to move my stuff over there, and that's going to suck. On the surface, my room isn't that big...maybe 18'x12' with a lot of it being the bed and walkway space to get to the closet...but it's very layered. I don't think it's going to be all that easy to move most of it. The only thing that I have going for me is that outside of maybe a few shelves and the mattress and such, I don't have that much in the way of big furniture that needs to be moved. Of course, there is the added labor of getting all my brother's stuff out of the way. With the carpet and painters, it's generally consolidated in the middle of rooms, but it still needs to go somewhere.

I have the feeling that I'm being very stupid, but for the past month and a half, that's been my general feeling throughout. I've been extremely moody lately, prone to fits of anger and depression...wish I could get all that worked out as I don't know how much more my stuff can take. Already missing a button on this keyboard as well (two are missing on my old keyboard) and one of my Xbox controllers is starting to come apart (from being bashed into the floor). Everything just seems so overwhelming at the moment that I don't know what to do.

Oh yes...I hate holidays, they always suck and this one was no exception. Hope your holidays went better...because I doubt you'd be reading this if they went much worse.

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