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11/24/2003 Archived Entry: "The Aftermath"

So yeah...

I don't even know where to begin.

The weekend was great...which just makes the after-weekend that much harder. I really didn't want her to leave, even though I knew from the time she got here that she'd eventually have to go back. God, I can't even begin to imagine what it's like for her, I just hope I wasn't a *total* disappointment to her.

I do know that she may not be online for a very long time (potentially...I suppose there's a chance she might be on tonight...I have no idea), which is greatly depressing. Over the years, I've grown used to exchanging at least some form of communication with her daily and now...who knows? It was hard enough trying to get over not talking to my runt friend after getting used to it over the course of a year...and that was just *one* year (not three) and the runt was being quite mean about it, which if anything made it easier to get used to the idea. This sucks horribly though.

And thinking about it just makes me feel selfish...because everything I have going on is almost trivial (at best) in comparison to what she's having to sort through. Like, yeah...I won't be able to talk to her, but the reason that I can't talk to her is *so* much bigger than the trivial matter of not being able to talk to her. I don't know, I guess it's human nature to focus on things you might be able to influence or things that seem more immediate.

Still don't know if/when I'll be buying/moving into my brother's old house. That would ease some of my worries I think, but there's so much to do! New carpet, wall repairs/painting, furniture cleaned. And that's to say nothing about the simple act of *buying* the house. Moving my brother's stuff out (of the upstairs) and moving my stuff in. I shudder to think about how nested everything in my room is. It doesn't *look* like much, but every available inch of that place is jam-packed full of things. It took four days to get the room clean enough for Ally to visit, and it really isn't that clean, it's just better organized into piles. Getting the stuff out of my room and over to the new house...I don't know, it just seems like it's going to be a big project.

Speaking of, work is dragging by slower than usual today. Feels like it should be closer to noon, but it's only 10:40AM currently. I've only been at work for 2 and a half hours roughly and I already want to go home. This sucks.

[Insert long time pause]

Now an hour later...still don't wanna be here. And the irony of this entire exercise is kind of dawning on me. I don't *have* that big of a readership (if they break double digits, I'd be surprised) and most of them aren't the "stop by daily" types...except the one person who actually would if she had an Internet connection. :/

I don't know...I just don't know.

And if you were looking for anything other than pointless whining, I'm afraid you've come to the wrong website.

Replies: 2 Witch Burnings

Bummer :( Well, you still have land-line. Then again, you could be in my shoes. My systems fried last week (

Posted by Bearclaw @ 11/25/2003 09:11 PM EST

Yeah, Ally mentioned that...sorry to hear about it. And aforementioned person doesn't have a land-line...cell phones only which means after 9PM. :/ Rumor has it though that upon her triumphant return (a la Aragorn in Return of the King)...she will bring with her the might of broadband! So that will usher in a new age of Internet terror :)

Posted by Krin @ 11/26/2003 08:26 AM EST

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